Thursday, February 03, 2005

Reality strikes back

I had a midwife appointment last week and seemingly out of nowhere the midwife said, "So, have you thought about what you're going to do for birth control after the baby's born?" Whuh? Huh? Who in the what now? I've just spent the past few months trying not to get too attached to the idea that this baby will actually be born and now I'm supposed to somehow leap ahead and accept a post baby reality? I mean, I just finally wrote my due date in pen in my calendar a couple of weeks ago. I'm having a hard time letting go of the first trimester terror, the words "after the baby's born" are still hard to utter. I guess maybe I need to unwind a little bit and actually try to enjoy this pregnancy before there's an actual baby here. A baby!